i reunited with a really good long-lost friend recently.
im glad we reconnected, but its clearly evident things aren’t the same.
there is a conversation i need to have with this person before i personally can move on in life – this person has really hurt me and betrayed my trust and i just want to let that person know how the situaltion has made me feel thus putting a strain on our friendship. so far, conversations since we’ve reconnected have been trying to schedule a time to meet up and talk. but i’m the type of person where if i attempt more than once i just let it go on some, ‘maybe it wasn’t meant to be‘ lame excuse. *shrugging shoulder* this person knows i love them always.
in other amazing news, today was by real-boy BFF‘s birthday! *shaking pom poms & waving around sparklers* we had a quiet lunch where we talked about grown man haters and my personal quest for healthy hair and to be rid of weave in three years. out of the blue he asked me what i wanted for christmas and all i could do was look at him *blankly*. i HADN’T effing thought about it! i usually don’t ask for anything cause im not really a christmas person, i think christmas is highly overrated and an excuse to make up for the times you messed up over the years with gifts lol…so i really i don’t know what i should ask for and i’ll probably not even mention it again and hope that he doesn’t…what a great friend that boy BFF!
unrelated, ive also found out that i have the ability to walk past my sister and my niece and not say a word to either of them. ive been known to do that to former friends, but family is a first. i will admit, i am not proud, but pride is a hell of an emotion. there are a lot of deeply rooted issues that i refuse to get into but i know i must personally work that out. my dad may say, i need to find the lord, but what i definitely need to do is check myself.
~lissa
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